Clark Girls

I am back to work today after a great time in Indy. I dreaded getting up at 5am, but I just have to keep thinking about the cruise and the paycheck!! I am really coming to a crossroads in my life. Up until now everything had been planned (high school, college, marriage, etc), but I am rapidly approaching a very unplanned portion of my life. Graduation is nearing and everyday I have a different idea of what I think I would be happy doing. It is almost as though I have too many choices and I cannot settle on one. I guess I need to realize that this is a good problem and that nothing has to be permanent, change is simple, especially with my career. I grapple with whether or not to go to grad school, and if I decide to go to grad school then I have to think about where to go, what to study, When to go and all sorts of things. I also have to decide where to work! Do I stay at the job I am at, just transition to a nurse, and only have a one year contract, or do I try to get on at vandy getting paid less and having a two year contract but a great opportunity? The transition would be harder, since I would have to go to a new a place, but nothing I can't handle. To complicate all of this I know when I want to have kids and move and all of that which is pushing down on my career choices. I honestly know that to me building a family is the most important thing to me, not a career (although I feel like I am letting my family down for some reason.... but all of the wonderful women in my life are mothers first and formost). But how do I know what the future is going to hold? I wish I knew! If anyone has any advice I'd love to hear it! until then I will continue to lament over my many many choices! And none of you have to remind me of how young I am and how I have all the time in the world ;) I have taken that into consideration too!